Choose Peace

I get into tizzies a lot. Though the general population may not be aware of it all the time, my brain is a non-stop carousel of ideas/thoughts rising and falling to the rhythm of my life. I hate uncertainty; I love making plans.  I hate not knowing the “right” thing to do; I love having a clear answer to the questions in my life. While some people see transitional phases in their life as exciting and exhilarating, I find myself scrambling to get back into some semblance of a routine before I go crazy.

Matthew 11:28-30

The above passage was our camp theme verse a few years ago when I was camp director with Calvary, and ever since then the Lord has been working on my heart to show me that I do not find my rest in Him. I do not choose to enter into His peace. Especially in the past few weeks, I have really been convicted about resting in the Lord during these periods of uncertainty (that left to their own devices with have me curled up into a ball of anxiety).

There are a lot of moving parts to my life right now, a lot of uncertainty. But I think the Lord has me here on purpose. He wants to CHOOSE to enter into His peace. Not the “peace” that comes from knowing my plans for the future or having clear cut answers, but the peace that I willingly enter into even in the midst of uncertainty. The peace that only the Lord can give, because He is the only thing that is certain. In Him alone I will find lasting rest.

Thank you Lord for the blessing of uncertainty; help it to draw me closer to you. Give me the strength to choose Your peace instead of chasing after temporary things of this world. Remind me that my perspective is limited and yours is infinite. Make my desire be for you first and foremost. With eyes focused on You, even when my world is spinning there is a clear direction for my life. You. I love you, thank you for loving me through my lack of faith. I want to choose to enter into your peace and rest. Amen.